June 8, 2026

Three Things

• I had a library book due on Friday that, according to my library dashboard, had no holds, which means I didn’t prioritize it for reading, expecting to simply renew it. But then when I tried to renew it, there were holds after all, and instead of returning the book to the library as statutes require, I kept it for three more days so I could read it, and I feel so ashamed of myself. And the point of this is for you to give me some absolution, of course, but also to delineate how badly I feel about this while there are actual carjackers walking around (or I guess they’re driving) without much compunction, and how. How? I really was not cut out for the criminal lifestyle.
• I got my hair cut yesterday and sailed down Palmerston Avenue from Harbord to King on my bike to get to the appointment, the most incredible ride, bike lanes all the way. I love riding my bike so much. Even when I have to come back and everything is slightly uphill and I end up panting.
• My daughter received a game called “Wavelength” for her birthday, and I cannot play it. It’s a game of parsing out degrees between extremes, and I think I’ve become allergic to categorization and binary thinking and it’s just all shades of grey, keleidoscopic, and just when anything feels completely settled, I’m re-evaluating again, and maybe nothing is ever really fixed, and maybe I am overthinking “Wavelength.”