December 18, 2011
I had a plan once
I had a plan once, that I’d have a book before I had a baby, but it turned out that I had a book that wasn’t very good, and one can put off having a baby forever. So I had a baby, and then I wrote a lot of other things, but it’s hard to write a new book when one took you wrong before. The first (or, ahem, second) time around, you can fool yourself into thinking the objective is just writing to the end, but there’s more to it than that. It’s hard to write a book once you’ve learned that your best might not be good enough, that hard work really can come to nothing, that the doubting voices in your head might be telling you the truth. It took me three years (and many false starts) to get to the point where I was ready to start again, but once I did, I found myself tremendously liberated. There was no fear of failure, because I’d done that before and survived, and I could do so again if required. And having my illusions shattered, I knew there was no other reason to be writing another book except for the sheer love of doing it, and love it, I truly did.
I started this first draft in September of 2010, and my goal for 2011 was to finish it. The manuscript was finished a few months ago, but it was only this morning that I printed it out (on green cardstock, because what else am I going to use it for?): 128 pages, 65,000 words, absolute proof of goal achieved. And you know what? It’s actually pretty good. I’m looking forward to reading it over the next few weeks, red pen in hand, and then beginning my second draft with a blank page, new document, and trying to make it as good as I possibly can. Which is now my goal for 2012, as well as to enjoy every step along the way.
But in the meantime: hooray for right now. Another goal is to remember that hurdles are milestones.
Congratulations, Kerry! Hooray for not only right now but all the right nows it took to write that draft. What a huge accomplishment!
Yay! Bravo, you.
I’m in awe. Amazing! Congratulations, Kerry.
Congratulations on a heart-filling achievement! Best of everything for 2012.
Hurrah! Good for you!
Congrats, Kerry! I’m so excited for you (and me; looking forward to the day I get to read it!)
Awesome, Kerry! Congrats!
Love the photo of the manuscript under the Christmas tree. There’s still nothing to beat paper (or cardstock). Congratulations on this milestone and thanks for letting us share it.
Congratulations!!! A big accomplishment and a great way to end the year.
Thank you for the cheers. Perhaps I’ll do the second draft with your voices in my head instead of my own. xo